Day 305: I Don't Know

I'm applying soon for nursing at this university. I wish now that I took the time to get serious before on what I really want to be. What I want to do for the rest of my life. But I was like, "MAAAN I STILL GOTS TIME!" And look where it's got me. Still undecided. I really don't know what I want. Between art and medicine? Don't know. But seriously though? I've always wanted..orr thought that I'd be in the medical field. But this thing about discovering who I really am and what I really want to do.. it just sucks when you're running out of time to choose which career fits who you are. There's a lot of options though, like say, taking a year off. But right now? I don't really want to do that. I want to jump on board right away and get the education I need to live an independent life.

BUT MAN, with all these other things I have to deal with, it becomes harder to focus because my stupid hormones keep me from doing what I should be doing. Everything is clustered in my mind. My feelings are mixed up and I'm just really confused on what is right and wrong anymore when I'm being real. -sigh- I'm having those moments again. But this is my blog. I'm allowed to say what I want. So deal with it.

-You're pretty cruel you know. I know I've told you something I've never told anyone else, but did you have to be so ignorant about how I might feel?
-I need sleep. I find myself sleeping just about anywhere >.<
-If you went to my school, we'd be best friends.
-I'm glad I didn't see you today. I want to do this right.
-I need to break things down and stay off the computer. ugh. but thats so hard though.
-Go ahead. Hurt me. It's not like I have feelings or anything.