Day 279: Lacking Creativity

Lately I've been taking pictures of my little cousin and brother instead of something creative. Yeahh, I'm not the creative person everyone thinks I am. I wish I had that talent though.. if I did, I would probably have more thoughts into becoming an art teacher. But I don't. And don't say, "WHAT CHU TALKING 'BOUT?! What about your origami,drawings, photos, you're good!" When it comes to being creative at the moment, I blank out and stare around. It doesn't come to me as well as it does for others and so it takes me like... a few or more hours or days to actually make an acceptable idea and present it in a creative way. And what really bums me more is that I don't have the passion to be creative, especially at the spot. It hurts my head and I usually find myself thinking, "this is why you can't be an art teacher". I don't have anything original to call my own and be proud of it. Well, at least that's what I think. Maybe I do and I can't remember what or where I put it. sigh. Even that I'm not sure. This is saddening.

Then again, maybe the lazy kid inside of me is the reason why I'm lacking creativity.. and why I'd end up doing something crappy in the end. Iunno.