Day 363: Last Day of 2010

Today is the last day of 2010! WOOHOOO NEW YEAR SOON! Happy soon to be New Years everyone! :D

Day 362: Polaroid!

Jomar and Maria came to my house today to hang out. After eating pizza that Jomar ordered (thank you! :) and catching up with each other, we decided to watch Black Swan. That movie was interestingly creepy and weird. Apart from the sexual scenes, it was a good movie - it kept you guessing and wondering.

Anyway, I'm finishing the night by playing Assassins Creed: Brotherhood!

Day 361: Telephone

Talking to her mother on the phone! It's really cute the way she tries to make a conversation.

Anyway, I couldn't go on the game day a few friends of mine planned out because I had to baby sit Arielle. SO I decided to play Assassins Creed: Brotherhood for a few hours instead. This game is a little addictive -__-

Day 360: Family Photoshoot

So I missed out on Kids for Christ's Fellowship and Honouring night because my family had to go get a family photoshoot. Eh, it sucks but hey I'm continuing on for the second year so I hope I won't miss it next time!

Day 359: Pencils!

So I cleaned areas of my room today and found these pencils. I really have no clue what to do with them. I remember the last time I cleaned, I saw these pencils too but decided to put them away somewhere in my room. I have a lot of other pencils already and I don't use these kinds anymore (I use mechanical pencils and the branded staedtler pencils for drawing). Anyway, to finally get rid of this frustration I decided to throw them away for good. Well, I put them on the recycling box and I think my uncle might have picked those up.. not sure but I'm glad they are out of my reach now.

Day 358: Unexpectedly Fun

I wasn't going to go to my parent's household Christmas party tonight because I wanted to watch the Big Bang Theory and play Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood instead. My brother didn't even feel like going either. BOY I'M GLAD I CAME! Omgoodness, it was actually very fun! I loved the games they set out, it was one of the most fun times (beside the G.O.B Christmas Party) I've had in a while! Who knew adults could be so fun? LOL obviously I'm just joking. I find it funny how there's such a gap between teenagers and adults. Like, teenagers tend to gossip. And to think that our parents did the same thing when they should be the ones setting good examples to us. But actually, they too gossip!

Anyway, the last game was Chubby Bunny. I forced and then encouraged (lol) my brother to join in. I told him if he goes, I'd go too. It turns out, he exceeded everyone else's number of marshmallows in their mouths! The prize? A $50 card for this restaurant whose name I forgot. Anyway, I'm really glad I came tonight :D

Day 357: Christmas Morning

Opening the presents time! Nathaniel got a lot of presents from his aunts and uncles! You should've seen just how happy and smiley he was. He even clapped his hands due to the joy of opening the presents and seeing a new toy in front of him! I can't wait when I finish school/have a career and buy him and Arielle presents... then telling their friends that I was the one who got it for them haha.

Day 356: Christmas Eve

We had a little family photoshoot. We all were supposed to wear red but my parents decided not to and Nathaniel was wearing green already. Anyway, this Christmas we didn't celebrate it with other people, just our family. It's not as lively, but I'm thankful that we all celebrated it with each other. I wonder how my relatives are celebrating Christmas back in the Philippines.. oh gosh, I can't wait until we go vacationing there! My mom says the next time we come back, we'll go back during Christmas vacation. AWWW YEEE. I can't wait!

Day 355: A Very G.O.B Christmas

BEST. GOB. CHRISTMAS. PARTY. EVAAR. Today was filled with so much fun and getting to know each other. I took a lot of pictures, so the memories will be somewhat permanent. I guess I don't need to say everything here for me to remember, the pictures will help remind me. But one of the favorite things we did today was when we played the questions game. I found out some things about my friends I didn't know.. err probably forgot about. We had a ginger bread house contest and even though both Charlotte and I were "artists", ours was the ugliest LOL. We messed up with our icing bag and so everything after that became messy. We did many things, and I'm so glad we made it work for this year. This was pretty much our first official G.O.B Christmas Party 2010. The only one missing though? Chinenye, she had to leave early. Oh wells, hopefully we get to do this again next year. THANKS GUYS FOR TODAY! It was really fun! LOVE YOU ALL! <3

Day 354: Sleep Over

I'm sleeping over tonight at my friend's house for our G.O.B Christmas party tomorrow! I won't say what the acronym is... we made this group name in elementary and it's sort of lame now lol. And because they don't want to change it, well then it stays as it is.
So here I am 10 o'clock at night at Sunridge mall reading a book on the kids area... alone. One of my friends is still wrapping gifts (volunteering) and the other went to the dollar store. I was enjoying the moment actually, just reading there at night without a care of what other people think. I like days like these. After that we went to Superstore to buy some things we need for tomorrow. Then picked up another friend and went straight to Jill's house. What did we do the rest of the night? Wrapped more presents and then watched a movie late late late at night (actually it was around 1 in the morning). I stopped halfway because two of them fell asleep and told the other we'd finish it later in the morning lol.

Day 353: Zoolights

Nikol from my school's YMCA gave us over 25 tickets to go to Zoolights! It was unexpected because we thought only the extreme leaders would go, then she gave us more! Unfortunately, her husband got into a car accident but he wasn't hurt thank goodness! So Nikol couldn't go with us as she had to take care of that.
Anyway, we gave tickets to a lot of people. The tickets only lasted until December 30th so they didn't have to go today if they couldn't. These were some of the people who came with us. Some of them roamed around the zoo so it's not really full "attendance". Today was fun! Too bad it got colder -___- but overall? It was a day well spent :)

Day 352: My Donation

Last YMCA meeting, Nikol presented to us a little christmas tree with tags on them. There were different tags that were all for the family we adopted. In them, it gives us specifically the things we could give for the family. Some of us decided to get the gift card tag and a tag for the 14 year old girl where we have to get her things that could fill up a stocking. These are the things I'll be donating for her. I really hope she'll like these!

Day 351: Santa on the Elevator

My family went to Sunridge Mall today and saw Santa Claus waiting for the elevator LOL. Yup, he takes the elevator instead of his reindeers haha. Anyway, that's my mom next to him.

Guess what I got today?? ASSASSINS CREED: BROTHERHOOD! YAAY! Well, I only wanted it because I wanted that gamer inside of me back. Yupp, I used to be a gamer, then I started to pay more attention to school during junior high. And I think that's where my gaming days started to fade haha. Hopefully I finish this game instead of giving up... that's what happened with the first Assassins Creed game- I stopped playing because I couldn't figure out what to do next!

Day 350: Happy Birthday Charlotte!

I had a hard time deciding on which party to go to today- my friend's 18th birthday or the CFC-YFC Christmas Party. My mom told me that I HAD to go to the CFC-YFC party since she bought tickets already without asking if I'm busy on the 18th. And to be honest, I wanted to go to this party too- I haven't been active in a while. BUT I already had plans for today, so I convinced her to let me go to my friend's party instead.

So besides the long 2 freezing cold hours to get to her house by bus, I'm really glad I came! I got to meet some of her friends and ate some good food! AWW YEEE that was one of the things I was really looking forward to- since I was so hungry haha. See this cake here? Her VERY CREATIVE friend made it! OMG, this guy has a creative imagination, I mean.. isn't that cake amazing?? The quality's not that great but it still looks AWESOME. Anyway, I drank Mike's. That's what it was called. It had vodka. Before you point fingers and go "THATS BAAAD", you should know, there was only 5% of alcohol in it. And yeah, it was the first time I've drank a whole bottle. And no, I wasn't drunk or nuts. It was already opened for me, so I drank it instead of wasting the whole thing in the sink. And yes, it tasted BITTER. EEEW. Actually, during the first 2 seconds it was okay, then it becomes really bitter. >.<

I had fun today. I hope you like your gift Charlotte! And I hope tonight was a fun and memorable night for your 18th birthday party. =)

Day 349: YMCA/Boys&GirlsClub Christmas Party

THE DAY IS HURR! Today was our BIGGEST event yet for YMCA! As you can see, there were A LOT of kids plus their parents. You wouldn't believe it, it was like a zoo in the gym lol. I took a lot of pictures too, and I wish I could post some of them here, but I only post one picture a day so I can't do that. Though I have the will to do so, I'd rather stick to a picture a day haha. I really had fun taking pictures and although I didn't like the fact that I took too much (since I'd have to upload on fb and then upload again on e-mail- aah!), I'm glad that I had this opportunity to somewhat learn and "grow" as an amateur photographer. I'll talk about this "growth" after almost a year of taking a photo a day on a different post. Anyway, today was pretty great. Goodnight! :D

Day 348: Hero Project's REACH

Today was the REACH event night hosted by Hero Project! Hero Project is a group of students in my school who try to reach other students to Christ and their faith. We meet every thursdays during the first half of lunch to worship and have fellowship with other students. Tonight was our first BIG event and I have to say, it was a success! We had so many students that came! It was pretty awesome. If you're wondering, the event consisted of worship songs, a skit, a testimony from a student, a guest speaker, food/snacks, and fellowship. Since this is our first time, we decided to record the whole thing with two video cameras. I didn't do so well with recording one, I was more into photographing the people rather than paying attention to the video camera. Thus, there were parts when I had trouble taking the video camera out and putting it back in the tripod WHILE it's recording. Oh wells -__-

OH, and we also stuffed the bus with food donations this morning too. What's frustrating was how unorganized the collecting of the food was. It was so annoying. Hmm, what's done is done.. but still, it was really messed up as people didn't assign the collection properly.

Just writing it down to remember what happened today. :P

Day 347: YMCA Meeting

Before our Christmas event with the Boys and Girls Club this Friday, we had one more meeting to talk about the schedule and other things needed to be discussed about. We found that there were teddy bears donated for the kids and we all crossed our fingers for some teddy bears leftovers on the event haha. We put candies and other goodies on the girls and boys bags. We discussed about next week's plans and also our adopt-a-family initiative. There's a lot of new members too if I haven't said it already (Christine! The twins and others :). That's it really!

Day 346: Messy Table

Okay, so my table right now is pretty messy. I've been putting things on its wrong place and forgetting about it. I do that a lot. Once something is clean and tidy, the mess gradually comes back. But I wait to the point that it's so messy, all I would really want to do is stop what I'm doing and CLEAN. We're all messy sometimes. Don't lie, you know you've been there!

So what happened today. Oh, right. I'm still sick. If I haven't mentioned it already, I got a little sick yesterday and now my nose is running like crazy! I pretty much had to get up over 5 times for the tissue during English class WHILE doing a test! Thank goodness it was easy! PHEW. We practiced today for our Hero Project's REACH event this Thursday. I probably haven't mentioned that too. Hmm, some other time. You can point fingers at me and say LAZY but I don't care.. because we're all lazy sometimes!

Day 345: Christian Persecution

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So I saw this video via facebook... and I teared up just watching it. It's unbelievable..shocking. You know we hear a lot of bad stuff happening in this world and sometimes we shook it off.. but when we see the real thing? It just breaks my heart that something like this is going on. I didn't know that there was still Christian persecutions in today's time.. I've never really stop to think about it.

If you can, please take the time to pray for those who are persecuted because of their religion.. or at least have them in your thoughts.

:'(

Day 344: True Meaning of Christmas

Nathaniel's first Christmas soon. When he grows up, I'm going to make sure that he doesn't fall into the whole "Christmas is about getting presents from Santa and having a Christmas tree" thing. Because it's not about that. It's about the birth of Jesus Christ. I was upset when one of the Glee characters said that the center of Christmas was the Christmas tree. WHAAT?! And I was even more upset to the fact that little kids are watching this show and think that Christmas is nothing more than getting gifts and surrounding a tree. Sorry, I know this can be argued, I'm just upset because the true meaning of Christmas is lost. It's true meaning is centered around Christ. Not the freaking Christmas tree nor Santa. This is my faith, and I'm sorry if I have offended you (if you aren't Christian).

-sigh- It's sad that people get fooled by big corporations and spend spend spend tons of money on presents. Oh don't get me wrong, I love getting presents too and I know it's also about giving. I'm just upset that the meaning is lost and replaced by advertisement of Santa's face and Christmas trees and having to spend too much money which could be spent helping people who need the help (homelessness, poverty, etc etc). More children believe in Santa Claus than Jesus now too. >.< Okay, enough of that. Goodnight.

Day 343: Fundraising Event!

We're so lucky to have had a lot of people donate their things for this fundraising event! We have so many clothes, tvs, a keyboard, books, antiques, etc etc! We did a really good job in getting people to donate, but we didn't do so well with telling people about the event. SO, we've decided to do this another time. Hopefully we can raise enough money to put smiles on our "adopt-a-family's" face.

Oh, and I'm not sure why the sizes of the photos are different, they are usually a good size but now they're smaller. I tried to resize them, but they lose quality. So just click on the picture to see a bigger and better quality photo!

Day 342: Preparing and Pricing

After staying in the art room for about an hour, we headed to pho to eat. This is my favorite, their house special! We then headed back to school to prepare and price the items donated for our fundraising event. That's it. :)

Day 341: Just Friends

I got a new mini calender for 2011. Well, I found it around the house and brought it to my room lol.

I think I type too much. OR maybe because we haven't talked in a while. Ugh, I ruined it. On another note, have you ever talked to the opposite sex and your intention was to just talk about random things due to boredom? I mean, just because we aren't the same gender, doesn't mean we can't just talk normally. And just because you're a guy and I'm a girl, doesn't mean I'm talking to you because I like you. If I did, I'd put more effort into getting to know you, and you'd probably notice it *blushes* lol. Nah, I'd brush it off and pretend I don't like you, then go home and smile a lot haha. jks. The point is, don't jump into conclusions and think he or she likes you, maybe they're just chatting because they want to talk to someone and want to know how that person is doing.

Then again, we can't help but to think that way sometimes!

Day 340: I Miss Christmas

I traded my old alarm clock/radio for this new mini RCA my dad bought for my brother. Shhh, he doesn't need it. LOL I don't need it either but I wanted it. PLUS, the radio is so much more clearer than the other! Now I can listen to different radio stations when I want! I guess this is a little mean... but he broke my big stereo so this kind of pays off lol. And he has my piano, and other things of mine. Why am I justifying myself?

It's sad how it doesn't feel like Christmas is near. As I've grown up, I've noticed the magic and spirit is fading. But truthfully though, I think it's because I miss Christmas back in the Philippines. SO MUCH MORE lively there as I've experienced it. Or maybe I just need to get out more and notice this city's christmas spirit. And for many other possible reasons too.

Day 339: Pottery

Not all of us could do this, so those who says they want to do pottery first were added on the list. There's a bunch of techniques involved.. and it's pretty hard! But all you really need is more practice, and you'll get better at it. Anyway, we get to do this all week, so I'm looking forward to at least get a little better at it lol.

Day 338: Jacket From Australia

My auntie from Australia sent this winter jacket for me. It's comfortable but it feels a little tight. Yeah I know, it's not even a picture of the jacket. But I found this part of it more interesting haha. I really had nothing to picture, so I photographed this.

Day 337: Things I Don't Need

I found some stuff to donate for the Extreme Leader's fundraising event! I'm going to look for more stuff prior to the event and hopefully a lot of people come to buy the donations that strangers have generously contributed.

I think my appetite is back! OH YEAH. Last week I lost my appetite to eat anything. Once I woke up from a 2 hour sleep, went upstairs and saw some deliciously tasty chicken on the kitchen table. I was eager and all and as I took my first bite, my excitement drastically fell to 0. Whatever it was, it was pushing the food away and I was on the verge of puking up whenever I thought about the food. Weird, but it was like that. Anyway, those days are over.. I think. Hopefully I won't be sick this week!

And hopefully I get a new phone with unlimited text soon! :)

Day 336: 'Tis the Season for Giving

Our YMCA Extreme Leaders group decided to "adopt a family". We are basically raising money for a mother and her 4 children so that they can have a descent Christmas! So this meant that we had to think of ways to fundraise and eventually decided to have an indoor yard sale at my school! I've been asking a lot of people to donate clothes and old stuff they don't need so we could sell those to raise some money. To get more people to donate, Jomar, Jill and I decided to do a door-to-door thing. Jomar printed over 65 cards with info in it and then we gave those to the people who opened the door. After feeling comfortable, Jill and I parted ways from Jomar and did our best to get people to help. We did awesome actually! We got a lot of people who wanted to donate some stuff, hopefully they won't have trouble dropping those stuff off at school.

Anyway, it was soo cold. It took a while, but it was worth it. Hopefully we'll reach our goal before the end of the week!

Day 335: Bubble Wrap

Still wasn't feeling good today.. so I decided to go home instead of heading to the theatre to watch a movie. Arrghh. I'm not so sad, but I do want to watch Harry Potter in the theatre- big screens are always better than watching DVD.. unless you have a BIG screen T.V. >.<

Anyway, my cousin was popping this bubble wrap. She left it on the floor in my room and there were a few times when I got up and scared myself because I kept on stepping on the bubble wrap. Why didn't I put it aside? I wondered how many times I'd forget it was there that's why LOL.

Day 334: We Are Flawed

Yesterday I felt sick. Today I still feel sick. I hope this condition goes away soon.

I wonder how many of them are hurting? What they are thinking? What secrets they are hiding... we are so flawed aren't we? So imperfect. There's nothing wrong with that, I'm imperfect and I know I have flaws. I sin a lot. We all do.. no matter how much you justify your actions, in the end you know you've sinned. And it sucks because we keep on sinning, and God brushes that off and forgives you anyway when you ask for his forgiveness. I feel ashamed for my sins. Well I guess there is something wrong with being imperfect- sinning. But we're human, it's inevitable for us to sin. -sigh- Thinking about all my faults is saddening. :(

Day 333: Next Move? IDK

What to remember about this day... oh! Two guys from the UofC Schulich of Engineering came to present about the types of Engineering during our Math Class. I'm still debating whether or not to take Physics 30 next semester. I want to, but I have so much core subjects. Ugh, it's going to be so challenging >.<

Day 332: Almooost Done

Almoooost done. Well, I'll be adding more layers when I'm not lazy in the future. So this won't really be done anytime soon. lol but I'll "finish" what I have so far.

Day 331: Hello Stranger and Friends

I came home and found my little cousin sleeping like that lol. I took a picture and put her in a proper sleeping position afterwards.

So there's no way in knowing who visits this blog.. other than telling me. Realizing that anyone could visit this blog, reading something personal/random, and showing up in front of my face like nothing's up bothers me a little. With the exception of those living far away from me. I find it a little disturbing that someone I know knows something I know/feel without knowing that they know. It annoys me a bit. I know I'm responsible for what I put up online... and that's why I tried really hard not to post personal stuff before. Eh.. I guess we all do this don't we? I find some things about people sometimes, but I act like I don't know because it's really non of my business to deal with their situation. Yeah, I'm a hypocrite.. but don't act like you aren't.

I think I'm going to post less about personal things..hmmm. But at the same time, writing it down helps. Well, ugh whatever. I'll write down random things without saying too much.

Day 330: It Shouldn't Matter

My little brother is not feeling well lately. He has these little red spots all over his face and body. I forgot what that sickness is called, but I think you only get it once. He actually got smaller too since he doesn't have much appetite due to his condition. But he is getting better though! My mom says it lasts for a few days and then it should wear off.

Anyway, I wonder how I ended up being the one asking you that. Shouldn't guys be the ones asking a girl to her grad? Then again, it's not your grad haha. But it shouldn't really matter who asks first. Why does the guy have to ask every time? I bet guys wish the girls would ask first most of the time. But honestly, at this moment? I'd rather have the guy asking me instead lol.

Day 329: Hamlet

My English class is reading Hamlet. I hate how it's so hard to understand what the heck they're talking about. Old English is so haaard to understand! We even watched the movie part along with the book too, AND IT WAS SO FRUSTRATING! The actors were good, but the words just passed through my ears. I end up laughing to myself actually.

I know that actors are supposed to pretend that the character they're playing really is them. I was being blunt and laughed at how they think they're someone else in the movie. Like, they're so good at playing a different character, and I wondered if they pull that act in reality too. But I wasn't laughing at that, I was laughing at their expressions. I know, I'm being real shallow but I was sleep deprived at that time. Lack of sleep can make you a jerk sometimes lol.

Day 328: Field Trip

Went to a field trip to UofC today. I guess it wasn't such a good idea to go as we only walked around after a history lecture. BUT I did got something out of that trip. It was kind of an eye opener and a slap in the face mixed together. Haha, yeah and I got to have an idea on what it's like being there with UofC students passing by the hallways.

I was so full today. Thank you Lanie for the food! And tell your mom the same too. Sorry we weren't very fun, yeah I confess..I'm boring in parties lol. NOT all the time though! :P

P.S: That pole on the picture is bothering me. >.<

Day 327: Free Time

I didn't do any schoolwork tonight since I'm going to a field trip the whole school day tomorrow. And because there was no Grey's Anatomy, I continued drawing Kurt and talked to people online- oh yeaah multitasking! But really? Doing this wasn't such a good idea. I only end up just talking instead of drawing. Haha, good thing I actually drew before logging online.

This is cute! Click hurr to see!

Day 326: YMCA Peace Medals Award

Our YMCA extreme leaders group got nominated for an award! So we went downtown and attended the event. It was pretty cool, especially because we got to be in the media. Well, our friend Jomar got thrice the fame by talking to the media and the rest of us supported at the back lol. We got to be on TV and on the Herald newspaper also! It was a pretty cool experience.

After school, we waited for our YMCA event to start by staying in the art room. I was trying to study up until we were told to keep the foreign exchange students from Mexico busy and entertained. My art teacher invited them over, and so we did our best to entertain them. I talked and talked to some of them and attempted to keep them entertained by showing my recent and previous drawings on my laptop. It was really nice finding out things and conversing with them with just about anything. I hope they come back before they leave though! If not, well hopefully they remember us haha. ANYWAY, good food tonight guys. The potluck made me sooo full. Thanks God for such a great and awesome day! :D

Day 325: Kurt Drawing Update

So this was all I did tonight. I continued drawing WHILE watching Glee! OH YEEAH. They better not remove Kurt, or the show will be less entertaining without him.

You know what? I actually am enjoying drawing his hair! Shocking, since I hate drawing hair. Hmm. I guess I can say thanks to Mrs. Howell for helping me find a different way to draw hair. Oh yee Imma finish this sooon enough!

Day 324: Trigonometry Quiz

The trigonometry unit circle. ISN'T IT BEAUTIFUL??
Oh yeah. I had to "memorize" all that. But trust me, it really isn't that bad. Once you know some key information, then this whole circle? Piece of cake!

Day 323: Over Analyzing

My brother can be a big jerk, but he does have his soft side. And oh Nathaniel, that cutie pie was so funny today :)

I don't know if you visit this blog, but what the hey, I'm writing this down. You mister. You are just. sigh. So I found out that it wasn't just me who noticed that day. I think a lot of people noticed something. And I think they think something is going on between you and I. I really don't know. I haven't over-analyzed this but this morning.. when I thought about you I felt... confused. How close you were sitting by me, you were technically squishing me to the side of the couch. >.< The way your skin touched mine. When we "held" hands. etcetcetc. I do feel some sort of affection, but I'm not sure if it's just friendship or something more. What made me confused? I was smiling at the thought of it..and... forced myself to stop thinking about you that way before the "butterflies" came. Am I just flattered or is there something more?

Ugh. Okay enough of this, I'm going to do my homework now.

Day 322: Discerning

I almost didn't make it to the meeting today. Well, good thing I did! Our last R.O.C.K Leaders meeting for the year... and although it wasn't a full attendance, worshipping with only a few (and all) of us was as always, amazing.

I have a lot to think about. I need to pray and discern what's next for me. Whether it be to stay or to move on, I gotta make sure if my hearts in it or not.

Day 321: Another Friday Aww Yee

So today was pretty awesome. Singing in Jill's car that loud was pretty awesome. Beating Kristine and Jomar on scramble was 'oh yeeaaah' awesome. Eating at a different pho was.. well, okay.. but would've been pretty awesome if I ordered my second choice instead. Anyway, we watched "To Save a Life" at the Jesus Word of Life (?) Church. The movie was indeed worth the watch. You should rent it, it's a good movie.

I remember the first time I heard of this movie which was probably, so many months ago. The first thing I did was look for it online (I know, that's baad.. BUT you've probably done it too!). I searched and searched and searched. If you'd seen me searching it, you would've thought I was crazy! Yeah, I wanted to watch it thaaaat bad. But I couldn't find it online and it didn't play at any theaters either. SO I gave up. Then I heard an event for this movie screening outside, but I couldn't make it to that one. THEN a friend told me that they were showing this at their church and FINALLY had to cancel a meeting with a friend just to see this movie. Yeah, I wanted to watch it thaaat bad. I don't know why I'm writing this. Okaay. Hope you have a good night!

Day 320: Coffee, Tea and Cake

So we had coffee and tea again, but this time with cake! See the kid on the right? It was his birthday, so my English teacher decided to bake for him. If you were wondering, yeah.. I decided to get coffee again with LESS sugar. Then I decided to get tea too just to try. The tea tasted really weird, so I ended up drinking coffee instead -___-.

I've decided that I'm not going to drink too much coffee in the future. I feel really weird afterwards. Who knows, maybe it's the way my English teacher made the coffee. Or maybe my body reacting differently now O.O. HOW AM I supposed to stay up in post-secondary now?!? OH GOSH. Must.Find.A.Way. >.<

Day 319: Plans Changed

She gives me more hugs than expected nowadays and have been in and out of my room a whole lot. Before her mom snatched her away, she kept on telling me to come with them and sleep in their room instead. She even tried to pull me with her teeny little hands lol. Where was I when she needed me before? The way I remembered it, I was always in a rush. I wasn't the big sister/cousin I should've been. If I had listened to what she needed, then our relationship would've been so much better. Not to say that it was bad. It's just that she's much more gentler to me now than before. :D

Anyway, I'm sorry I had to cancel this week's plans. Ugh. You're such a nice person! And I'm a jerk for putting you second. -____- I'll tell you as soon as possible which day I'll book off. And I guess we can't hang out at the park anymore, it might probably be too cold. We should eat out or something. Or watch a movie and discuss what you have in mind after. Ugh. The truth is, hanging out with only you makes me feel uneasy. >.< arrghgh. I wish you'd say we can talk while hanging out with everyone else. It'd be much easier for me as lame as that sounds. I'm so laame.

Day 318: Sugar Overdose

Yesterday my English teacher brought in tea and coffee. Thinking that I needed to stay awake in this class as I always start to fall asleep during this period, I decided that I should have some coffee. I haven't drank coffee in a while and as I remembered it at that time, it was bitter without much sugar. So I put in 3 teaspoons of sugar in my cup. It.was.too.sweet. I didn't want to throw it out so I drank it. Later I felt some weird effects. I felt sleepy and tired and my back was feeling weak. I'm sitting there like, "WHAT THE HECK, why is my body reacting so strangely??"

I overdosed myself with sugar. -___- And I still feel the "effects" today too so I wasn't really myself. On a serious note, something was bothering me. I'm not sure if it's the caffeine or just me. I had a memory problem today. There was this one word I couldn't remember. This isn't something that happens once in a while. It happens a lot. I forget peoples names and words that it comes to a point having a conversation with someone is hard because I simply can't concentrate on what I mean to say. Maybe it's just stress. Or maybe I'm over thinking/overreacting. I am concerned though. So I might as well get myself check just in case.

Don't worry about me, I think it's just a phase. All the over thinking and stress can affect one's memory. So it may just be that.

Day 317: Not Complete

Early admission to UofC? HOPEFULLY. But just like my dream, something feels empty. Something's missing. >.< I don't know. But there's one little thing that I'm starting to feel. I feel scared. I don't know what's going to happen a few months from now, but I hope I can be certain of my path. If I realize that this isn't for me after 1 year, well then. There's still time to figure out down the road.

Day 316: Posterize Oil Painting

Oil paintings should be thick. That's what my art teacher said. Yeah, mine isn't as thick. So maybe I'll try and paint it over and over again to hide the little mistakes and imperfections I don't want anyone to see. Which reminds me... we all do that don't we? We see something we don't like about ourselves or things we don't want people to know about, so we paint over it. We paint with makeup, clothing, attitude, facial expressions, etc etcetera. Sooner or later, you sort of build yourself up with lies. Whatever mirage/illusions we've made, eventually you are going to realize that reality will always catch up. You're gonna want to be real with yourself. You're going to look at the mirror and ask, "Why Am I doing this? Why Am I painting myself with things that aren't me?"

I guess it can all sum up to the fact that reality will always dominate fantasy. That's the brutal truth. You want to be happy? Be yourself.

Does this make sense? Maybe I could've put it in better words. Ugh. too lazy.
Anyway, this was just a thought. -____-

Day 315: Hope You Won't See This

So I'm really hoping that a certain friend doesn't go to my blog anymore. Because I was busy watching the Pacquiao Vs. Margarito fight, I was lazy enough to only take this picture. This will be my gift to her I guess? I hope it turns out good. Though the paper quality is a little crappy. Oh well. Anyway.. if you happen to see this, well I hope you'll pretend that you didn't see it. Or wouldn't even have the slightest clue that this was for you. Ugh, whatever. Well tada! If you do see this, now you'll know what you're getting on your 18th birthday mah friend :D

Day 314: Will Enjoy it While I Have it.

AWW YEEE I have two laptops now! Pfft I wish. My mom took away all electronics from my brother until he improves his marks at school. He's passing but his marks are unacceptable. My parents aren't strict but when they find that we're abusing the freedom they gave us, they sure will do something about it! So for now, I plan on taking his ipod touch, his apple laptop (technically, it's not his but my dad lets him use it), his... well not his TV.. it's too big to carry out. lol I guess that's it I can take from him. -___-

What ticks me a little is why does he have a freaking ipod touch while I have a freaking nano?? Ugh. I'm older.. I deserve an ipod touch. lol Oh well it doesn't bother me much.

If you're wondering what I'm watching on the right laptop, it's Smallville. Yeaah I watch it online. I rarely watch T.V anymore. Online is better 'cause I can pause it, rewind and watch it anytime I want. It's like having a TiVo, but internet version lol. I don't even know what a TiVo really does though I heard you can rewind, pause and play. Uh..yeah. Okay goodnight!