Day 150: Wake Up

I've been spending too much time on photography that I'm beginning to feel addicted on improving my skills. I really want to get adobe photoshop too, but too bad I don't have the money. It sucks because I'm relying too much on editing rather than the settings on the camera. Gaah. I wish I got into photography at a younger age.. on the plus side, I've got the rest of my life to improve! Well that kind of sounds depressing in a way. Anyways, I think the more I get into photography, the more I forget my skills for graphite drawing. O.O I guess I just feel that way, but really, all other pressures have really made me feel... like I don't have enough time. I know I've got lots of time ironically, but still.. I feel stuck in the middle because I just want all the worrying/to-do lists to go away so that I could just move on my own pace. There really is no one else to blame on why I feel like this but myself. On another note, I need to stop taking things so lightly and take things much more seriously. Also, I've got to stop procrastinating.. a near impossible task but it really is possible. Lastly, I need to wake up.. because lately I've been living on a dream than reality.