Day 178: Running Out of Time

Junnel asked me a few days ago if I could volunteer for St. Thomas Moore Elementary School's play day. I was going to turn it down because I was somehow feeling uncomfortable. After thinking about it, I decided to volunteer since I didn't want to waste my summer doing nothing. I really hope my summer will not go to waste. I want to be able to do as much as I can before school starts again. I want to help out, learn to cook a few things, draw, improve on photography, read the book my friend lent me a year ago (I still have it >.<), succeed as a set designer for Kids Village, make bracelets for little kids, glue the little origami pieces and display it, redecorate my room, etc etc. You know that feeling? When you just want to do everything ALL AT ONCE? Yeah, that's how I'm feeling. I want to do so many things, and believe me, there's A LOT more things I want to do this summer. You know that saying, "There's a time and place for everything"? Well, this is weird, but I feel like I'm running out of time to do all the things I want to do. Because I'm getting older that's why. In 13 days I won't be 17 anymore, I'll be 18. And because of age I feel like I'm running out of time. Yes, I'm still young, but I regret not doing the things I was able to do. With all the pressures around you, there are just some things you had the chance to do, but didn't. And so, I'm trying to make the best of my summer. To do what I didn't get to do and to mature and accept what I'd lost. I know that I'm growing and I'm also realizing things I've never noticed before. Also I'm lazy, I have low confidence in my self, I lack self discipline, I'm forgetful, and all the bad habits I do. And because of that, I might not be able to do some things I'm looking forward to do this summer. And if that happens.. well, I guess I need to remind myself that there is in fact, a time and place for everything.