I think it's more like... I've realized that I am socially awkward. I just didn't took the time to understand why I'd feel uncomfortable with people sometimes. I'm not THAT awkward... just a little more than a little bit. Like today for example. There was this guy. I don't know him that much but I can definitely say that we've gotten closer.. otherwise he wouldn't talk to me lol. Anyway, we talked to a point where I just became silent.. nodding my head and saying "yeah" "uh-huh" and "idunno". I didn't know what else to say.. I got nervous and so the conversation was dying off and I pretended that I was paying attention to the gaming corner. Then we stopped talking. gah. I really wanted to talk more.. it's just that the moment became awkward. Err.. I became awkward. :( Iunno. Maybe I'm socially awkward to certain types of people. There was this other guy who talked to me and we had a good conversation. It wasn't awkward or anything, we just talked. I didn't feel awkward at all and I wanted to keep on talking but we were interrupted when the MC was called to say something. I think that when a person has an interest in talking to me and more on the subject that we have a say and know about... then the moment isn't awkward for me. Especially when that person tries to converse more, then I'm more likely to feel comfortable than if he or she shows some sort of disinterest. Does that make any sense? Iunno.. Maybe that other guy made me awkward because he was also beginning to feel awkward too. Maybe I'm not socially awkward.. maybe I become uncomfortable when the other person feels the same way too or when that person loses interest in the subject (and I know about it). sigh. I'm all over the place aren't I? *deep breath* Okay, that's it for tonight. Byee.
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